A rough draft of my holiday plans
I talked to my grandmother today and I actually told her how I felt about the upcoming holidays. I told her that I just didn't want to do anything that has to do with my mom. I love the woman to death, but I don't want to go down to try enjoy time with them and get asked every ten minutes "Where is your brother?" I hate to quote Cain, but I am not my brother's keeper. Not in any shape, form, or fashion. To be quite honest, as bull-headed and idiotic as he has been lately, I really like it better when I don't know where he is or what is he up to. Ignorance is bliss.
This is besides the point. I don't want to be hounded about Joe (that is his name), so I told my grandmother right out that I just wasn't going to Mom's. She thought that I meant for Thanksgiving, but I told her that no I meant Christmas. She wasn't too happy... I even went further and said that I was slowly losing my mental sanity and that I need to treat the holidays as just regular days or I might lose it. I am really, REALLY scared that I will lose it and snap. I don't want anyone to have to be the blunt of it. Who knows what might happen?
So, the plans right now stand that I am going to do the usual Tues/Wed thing and then on Thursday, for lunch, my grandparents are treating my brother, my aunt, my uncle, and myself to dinner at a cafe, Mimi's. After that, the rest of the day is up to me to do with as I wish. I will probably go and see if someone is available to hang out. If not, then I will probably come home and catch up on some sleep or reading or something...
As for Christmas, probably what will happen is I will work Christmas Eve until 6:30p or so. I will come home, probably to an empty house since my grandparents go to my great-grandmother's house every Christmas Eve. I will probably get on here and fool around for a while or play some video game until I feel drowsy enough to go to sleep. I will wake-up on Christmas Day, open the presents that my family has for me, and that will be the end of it. The holidays will be gone and I can move onto the next chapter of life. That sounds evil and vile, but that is how I am going to do it. Otherwise... there might be consequences...
Right now, that is the outline that exists. It may change, it may get better, who knows? I still have some hope that someone will come along and make it worth while for me... I might meet them before this season is over, or maybe next year will start my new look on it. Who knows? Either way, I am going to go. I need to get some rest before tomorrow begins... Much love to all.
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Spots. Bleak spots. Im sick of them
The spots that I am referring to...the plethora of political ads presently being run on TV. I am sick of them. To think of the millions and millions of dollars being spent. They are all the same. Generally, they don’t tell us what the candidate or party who paid for them thinks or intends to do. No, they feel the time and money is better spent tearing down the opposition.
Flip the channel and what do we get? Another :60 spot informing us that the information we just saw on the other channel is nothing but a lie and misinformation. They are endless and mindless if you think about it. All they do is confuse and make one wonder who in the hell is telling the truth. And after we think about that we realize that none of them are. I am so so sick of them. What a waste of time and money. No substance. Little truth or muddled truths at best.
Is it really campaigning or is it just a warm-up in deceptive political speak to prepare the winner for the job they are about to begin? Scarey!
And on to Mentoring:
I attended my mentor orientation meeting this afternoon. The 2 people who conducted it were both very interesting and have been mentors for over 22 years combined. After the meeting we all spent some time with some of the kids so they could watch us interact with the kids to see how we did and who we interacted best with. Im excited about it. At first the kids are a hesitant and reserved but once they start to relax it is easy to see that they have a need and it doesn’t take much to make a difference for them. Caleb called me after I got home and I told him I owed him one for turning me on to it. I think ti is going to be fulfilling. Giving something back is a good thing.
And back to Halloween:
Some people put on masks and costumes and then allow themselves to step outside their normal comfort zone and persona. Others don’t need a costume. All it takes is a few beers. Mark belongs to the latter group lol. And as much as I would like to tell you about it, I don’t have time now. If I wouldn’t have stayed at Calebs as long as I did tonight, I could, BUT I stayed there way longer than I had planned. Maybe I will get time tomorrow after class or before we go out to the club.
And O I checked out the condo that Justin’s gramps is thinking of buying. Justin took me over to see the model. It looked pretty cool. A typical place I guess with a dining area, living room, fireplace, 2 ½ bathrooms, and 2 bedrooms and a small like family room. I have to say it looked a lot more comfortable than my dorm room lol. Have to wait and see what happens with it all. Not sure I could live with Justin without wanting to make a move on him and I wouldn’t want anything like that to happen if turned to be a negative thing between us.
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